Rainy night

 Rain rain Biequ night
this day, finally arrived ..... especially afraid of rain that night rain the night .... spooky voice is put you into the past, evoking the old you dream, the rain beat was the noise of window frames, the ferocious wind swept Grottoes, ears, bursts into the heart, turned into a road style, not pregnant pillow you dream. let your mood of anxiety ...
want to have a personal talk, talk about my own feelings at this time can still see you lodge still for me a small candle flickering, but it seems the courage to turn my light .... I do not want in my sorrow time into your line of sight, I would rather let you guess why I do not online, do not want tears in such a rainy night, to their infinite sorrow lonely shed for you, upsets you restless. I do not When I am depressed willing to follow you ... I do not want to repeat the toss that point the pain of a lifetime in the mouth, so you have to bite the bullet and although the trouble with ... I do not want to listen to subvert the image of my flowers become a modern version of the Xianglinsao ...
or silent dialogue with themselves and their own right, perhaps the only way that I feel a little uncomfortable, it is really I do not want to see you pass over those helpless sigh ... I know, you want to help me out of this swamp, I know, you have Qingjin can give me all your feelings .... but what the virtual network to solve real problems, even if my heart to have you support, or to a day ourselves before the power lines ... I have to learn to fly their own independent!
person's life, full of frustration! who is expected to be, life, each step being chosen, given up everything, Which is something to be proud to show off, which is worthy of repentance, in the choice time and time again, we tried to find the right way, and often our carefully selected, decided to put down are to be considered later regret. If the current We have chosen another path, go now, is not perfect it is, may not want to come! regret it Zhendi not, then do not regret it ... everything as fate, perhaps the best state of mind!
Some people say that life is like a play, I agree. generally in that film and television work is often not all that way? the first paving the way, after twists and turns one after another, and how many had after many years, and then in terms of How to previous. usually more comedy at the end of it, it is estimated that tells the audience that life is full of sunshine, hopefully drop! In fact, I think our experience is a good script is really .....< br> inadvertently We quietly played himself into the role of first love drawing near, the sea of Liang Ying, 20-year-old youth, and write our first love and spin it sounds good ... then more of us, in their prime vigor robust naive, that momentum seems to have fit in the earth .... we do not know that we love and marriage are different, we only know that enjoy the good taste of first love ... when the distance became unbridgeable gap, we fly their own Kite
thought to have experienced this only, we each started their own life, but can we meet again, and face each other in the face no longer young, really good cry, when we broke up more than the young, ah, Now our children are married, what we call street children?
really hope this is a dream, ah, wake up, return to their youth in you and me. Labour Park and then visit one back, white a tower and then climb back room to do one step back, I have another chirp back my youth to go a little farther back ... Unfortunately, ah! dreams are hard to round, I'm afraid we do not have such life opportunity
opportunity Do not try a really good sad
Xiangqilaijiu I do not know about you, anyway, I was shielding you, not want, but dare not think, except I feel unworthy of which there are so many outside of you misunderstanding pursued. including this reunion I'm afraid embarrassed, I afraid of meeting you. I do not know how to communicate with you, do not even know how to sort your gaze, especially in a special way moment. So I chose to escape, chose to hide.
I thought this life we will not have any relationship, you like the pages of my youth where a bookmark is only a shadow, it came. you do not become the hero of my book, then that seems so simple, pure, or some wood Na, the first love although the sweet memories left to us, but more and should do nothing before, or at a distance, it in the heart of the collection of a special way.
30 years of age we walk with each other in their own world, did not look into the distance no contact, no explanation, and no hope, it seems to turn to each other, I really thought the vision of each other similar to that brief and accompanied by nothing but pure love nothing more practice. First love may really struggle to be successful ...
I think this life I live I die, I cried I laughed, not about you, I Maybe in your opinion is just a passer, but is unrelated to the passers-by one. in front of you, I am afraid that even beggars do not like to see the beggar may have a heart of charity you something, but to me you around with before. of course not accidental that I am sorry you before, I weak, I could not even Liu Qiaoer that point there is no courage, I let go of your hand ...
years, we have homes of their own . tell the truth, he and I can say is to fall in love after marriage, and in daily life in the mill and little by little. little by little, the cultivation of the feelings. At that time know that I am more than done! have not put down a person, we should try to accept another person, just to gamble breath, just to he can forget you as soon as possible to.
but I am lucky and met a nice guy, he cares about me, protect me, care about me , care about me, even though I was very ill and I get along with him ever, there is no mind, did not give up, not abandoned, he sold a house to give me medical treatment, he let me know tomorrow how many of my despair is strong standing.
white sheets lay in the hospital, there is always a desire to see how you feel, that death can come at any moment think of someone, to see someone, you should know what it means. Finally one day, sunny, sunny, like the confession before his death, like foreigners, and he told me everything, told him not to worry, not that time, call me at ease, we must survive it. it is not I will not regret leaving the.
I do not know how to appreciate him, I do not know where you was doing, even if I inform you that you can come also the two that, confusion in I'm in my confusion, so with a desire to live with the fear of death, with the children on her husband's guilt and sadness, persisted, struggle with, endure, the end result is death backwards. I've survived. and every day living out of the color, live out the spirit, but also live out of the self.
I do not think what I'm worse than others, and others, and much worse than I have to . I have a home should be the world's most warm home, the husband should be the world's best husband, the child should be the happiest child. we've gone through the life of the College Entrance Examination, in the cruel test, he not only not abandoned me, abandoned me, but he is more treasure me, care about me, what I have luxury?
our outing, we were fishing, we climbed, we were swimming with us camping, to join us stealing fellow, . Everyone knows that in addition to him, no one can do that take care of me, painstaking also willing!
how many people envy me, I'm the proud like a princess. And then? I do not want to tell you this, just want to tell you a lot of ups and downs in my life though, sad a lot, but I get more happiness, happiness is more. I have a double shot of warm care of me, I have two friends care about me.
life itself is a textbook, teach you to appreciate, understand the fight, know the rules, know how to ethics. I'm really all good, mentally basis, the heart is not so afraid, is not also a deep look into the distance to each other The fate it? a forever in the sky, another is always in the horizon, although it seems very far away from me, but I'm content with, perhaps the true meaning of life is most happy contentment it, this life I feel lucky to have you. I will treasure.
since that day and later we met again after an absence of 30 years, I know this feeling should accompany my life, and I know this is a cherished forever. I will use my own way of interpreting these the best human feelings.
rain tonight and let my tears, tomorrow morning is a sunny day!